February 2012
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Why do I always get the feeling of being hated. It’s just, I’ve been constantly ignored, and not many people bother to start a conversation with me. I know I can be awkward at times, but still, that shouldn’t stop you! Perhaps I’m overreacting, I guess I’ll just forget about it and just “go with the flow”.
January 2012
13 posts
It’s ridiculous. I’ve been stressing out lately, and all I desire is relaxation. I’ve been constantly told to do things, to be prepared for the future, and to finish all my work. It’s too much for me to handle, and I just want to finish everything already. My mind’s filled with too much information, and I just want to let everything out. Perhaps I’m just...
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As much as I would like to be completely content with my life, I just cannot. Could it be that if I go to another location, everything would be different, but better ? Possibly, but there’s absolutely no way of finding out. Sometimes, I wish I would just move to another location, and just start over with myself. Don’t get me wrong, though, I don’t necessarily dislike my life...
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What’s wrong with me, why do I feel so lonely at times. Just a couple close friends that I can always rely on, is that too much to ask ? I guess it is. I just have to deal with it and let life take me where it wants to take me.
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I’m sorry I haven’t been posting lately. Procrastination and events really made me busy. Anyways, I’ll be hopefully posting more from time to time! Thanks for reading, and have a pleasant night!
When you actually want to talk to me, I really appreciate it. I mean, if the only reason why you want to talk to me is to ask a question, then is that all I’m used for ? I just appreciate when people actually choose to create a conversation with me just for the fun of it!
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I feel like I have very few people in my life who would legitimately listen and care about what I’d have to say if I ever had to vent.
It’s pathetic.
I dwell on the past so frequently even though clearly, I know I can’t go back in time. If only I could go back, however. I’d honestly enjoy that.
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Nowadays, dancing is what keeps me content with my life. You don’t know how much I dislike my life at times. I just want to finish school already, but don’t get me wrong, I don’t necessarily want to grow up so fast. I just want to get this over with. I just want to go to college, make real friends, and do what I love doing the most.
“It’s not what you do, it’s how you do it, but most importantly,...”
– Bboy A-Game
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Thanks for leaving me behind. Thanks for not even bothering to look for me. Thanks for not even telling me. I really appreciate it. I have plenty of other things to do anyways.
You know what forms whenever you ignore me ? An overreaction. You know, I want to keep up the conversation with you on a daily basis, so why do you ignore me ? If you don’t like me, you can just tell me. Of course it would hurt, but it’s for the best, right ? Also, if you don’t want to reply, I understand completely, but don’t leave me here worrying and...
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I haven’t been posting as much lately, and I truly apologize for that. My mind has been elsewhere for the past week. I’m back in track now! I just hope 2012 will be a year where I finally change the status of my life from “okay” to “great”. I hope true happiness will come forth to me this year. I just hope.
Time’s passing by so fast. It honestly felt like yesterday since 2010 just ended. Now, 2011 is coming to a close! I basically just want to thank everyone who’s cared for me, helped me, guided me, and basically thank those who are honestly there for me. This year’s been a tough one. I’ve been so confused about myself, and who I have as friends. Even though I’m still...
December 2011
25 posts
Don’t you ever get jealous of other people during Christmas ? You know, their high level of family closeness, the large amounts of presents they get, and many other factors. Maybe it’s just me, but I certainly do get jealous. I just wish my family was larger, and more closer. For the amount of presents, however, I don’t care what I get. It’s the thought that counts,...
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I remember writing letters to Santa. I remember taking pictures with Santa, I remember sitting on Santa’s lap. I remember waking up early on Christmas day to open all my presents and receiving all my toys. I remember waking up early and telling my parents, “It’s Christmas!” I remember those large family parties where everyone would give me presents. I still remember so many...
You know, getting invited to something actually does make me a bit happy. It just reassures me that I do have people that enjoy my presence. I know it doesn’t happen as often as I would like, but when it does, however, it just makes me glad.
I don’t know why, but I’ve been getting bad luck lately. You know, everything’s going downhill, seriously. I don’t know what’s up with me anymore, everything’s just not the same anymore. I guess I just need to forget about it. Bad luck comes every once in a while, right ? I suppose I should just hope for a better future rather than depress over the...
“What’s wrong?”
That’s a question many asks, but how would you answer it ? I’m not the type of person to answer using vents or large amounts of words. I would simply just answer with one word, or perhaps a couple at the most. I don’t feel it necessary for others to know how I feel, because I wouldn’t want them to worry much about me. However,...
Anonymous asked: how often do you go to the park?
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I was walking through the city, harsh weathers. Freezing my ass off meanwhile I was semi bundled up. It made me wonder, how do the homeless survive. How do they survive with all those factors, weather conditions, and just not even getting acknowledged by 75% of the people that walk by them. How many times have you walked by a homeless person and made them seem invisible? How many times...
Don’t you just hate it when you’ve been completely forgotten ? I do, and it absolutely hurts.
When you state something, please be serious and follow through with it. “We’ll never drift, we’ll always be friends!” Ahem, the last time I checked, our most recent conversation happened to be a while ago. You know, the last we hung out was even further long ago. It just seems to me that people tend to just say things, and never follow through with what they say. I mean, I...
I genuinely try to become a kind individual. You know, opening the doors for people, offering them seats, asking what’s wrong, and those type of stuff. Throughout this pattern, however, I’ve noticed that not many people appreciate it. I don’t mind, but it bothers me how some people don’t even say “thank you”. When someone shows you consideration and acts of...
Nowadays, I don’t feel as happy as I was before. Don’t get me wrong, though. I’m not exactly depressed or anything, but I’m just not happy as much anymore. Life isn’t the same anymore. I’m drifting away from many, many friends. I’ve been filled with large amounts of work. I’ve been busy with extracurricular activities. I’m continuously...
“I know how you often feel so forgotten, in our family, talking real is awkward, We don’t say I love you, we say are you hungry, and when we grow up, we move away across the country.” -Magnetic North(Home)
You know, as we grow older, we tend to ignore our parents more. We’re too busy to communicate with them, too busy to hang out with them. We’re...
What am I to you now ? You know, we used to talk on a daily basis, and now it’s rare for us to even say “hi”. Nowadays, it appears to me that you don’t bother beginning a conversation with me anymore. Am I merely a nuisance to you now ? Do I have no use to you anymore ? I don’t know. I want us to be what we were before. I want us to be close, and I...
You know what I dislike ? I really dislike people ignoring me. You know, I try my best to start a conversation, I try my best for our friendship not to cease, but ignoring me is not helping. For example, when I’m with a group of people and I’m asking a specific person a question. They don’t respond, but instead communicate with another person within that group. I mean, not...
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December 10th, 2011.
Today was the 2nd day of the talent show, and I honestly wish I could have said “My performance was fantastic!”. In reality, though, I can’t. I messed up so much, even to the point of some of the audience laughing. It really brought my mood way down, but having people comfort me and telling me it was awesome brought it a bit up. Sadly, however, a person,...
I need to get focused. I’ve been slacking off so much lately. I don’t know if it’s because of the weather, or just because of me, but I really need to start focusing more on school. I need to start trying harder, and I need to start studying now because college is just around the corner. I have goals, I have dreams, I want to accomplish them, and I shall lead them.
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What have we become ?
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You know, the slower you reply, it just makes me wonder. Why ? You know, when I want to talk to you, I don’t expect an answer every 30 minutes, but I also don’t expect it right away. I understand if you’re busy and all, so all you have to do is say so! I know people have homework, or parties, or possible something useless, but I completely understand! I just want to see an...
Anonymous asked: I like your posts :) *thumbs up*
“No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to...”
– Barbara de Angelis
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12/1/11:
I was walking with two other people, and then they decided to talk about their best friend stuff to each other out of no where, so I was forced to be by myself for about 30 minutes while they were talking, laughing, and enjoying themselves. I was told not to be with them and just sit in the other side, because they were discussing their secrets. You don’t know how awkward it was...
“Try to make at least one person happy every day, and then in ten years you may...”
– Sydney Smith
November 2011
35 posts
” Everybody makes mistakes “
Yes, yes, I know. Every one does make mistakes, but I absolutely hate it. One mistake can cause me to think for long periods of time, causing me to be filled with even more stress than what I can handle. I mean, I learn from my mistakes and all, but I just make too many, causing me to be overfilled with thoughts about that particular mistake.
I’m...
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Don’t you just hate it when you don’t know what to do ? There’s many options, and there’s many choices, but which one do we do ? Which option is considered the correct option ? Will everything go wrong with the “incorrect” option? I honestly do not know what to do anymore, in anything. I have so many plans, so many thoughts, but I don’t know...
Honestly, I always wondered what people think of me.
I mean, come on, who doesn’t ? But really, It’s really nerve-wrecking. What if someone secretly hates me ? Oh man, the thought of someone hating me. Or perhaps, what if someone likes me ? Oh come on, let’s get real! Well, in conclusion, I’m just curious. I’ve always tried my best to be considerate...
Lately, I’ve been confused.
The future will come soon, and I have no plans. What will I become in the future ? Where shall I go ? What path shall I head to ? What if I pick the wrong path ? I know I still have “time”, but time is running out. Years will pass by so fast I won’t even notice it. I need to prepare myself, I need to get everything intact.
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Winter ball is this Friday, and I have no clue on who to ask. Why am I so clueless sometimes.
Posting up photos or creating statuses about their pleasant day. It just makes me feel lonely sometimes. While everyone is out and about enjoying their lives, I’m stuck here. Why can’t I be like them ? Why can’t I just have more fun ? I don’t know, I just feel alone sometimes.
Quality family time is precious, so make sure you enjoy every minute of it wisely because one day, it won’t be the same.
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WatchHappy Thanksgiving! November 24th, 2011!
Happy Thanksgiving!
“A thankful heart is not only the greatest virtue, but the parent of all the other virtues.” -Cicero
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You’re stuck at home, wondering why you were not invited. While all your friends are having fun with each other, you’re doing nothing of use. Why is that ? Whenever I’m not invited to hang out or have an enjoyable day with people, it really bothers me. Every time that happens, I often think of negative thoughts. Is it because they dislike me, or, rather, is it because they...